All alone, in eternal solitude

After what I did back in 2023 with getting myself into a relationship with someone who was 17 at that time while I was 26 and accused said 17 year old as a groomer when it's the other way around, I've become a monster that I hated and people covered. Even I left the projects I'm in on my own accord because of what I've become and done. As a result, I don't trust myself to be around anyone anymore, and I'm distancing myself from communities I used to be in and anyone online to keep them safe. Do not contact me unless if necessary, do not baby me, do not defend my actions, & DNI if you're under 18. I need to learn to do some personal growing and maturing to get serious mental help to ensure that this will not repeat movin...